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To: MOON GODDESS

2010-01-06T01:35:00.002+08:00

THIS POST IS SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO THE MOON GODDESS, and the little rabbit melody teddy bear adopted at marina square..

Dear Moon goddess,

Let me start my renewal of this blog with a poem that I have created just for you.

The Sun sets down the west horizons,
and the moon gradually ascends the sky.

This is when i know,

the goddess has appeared in my eyes.

When the goddess descends from the sky

Wings of beauty and love spread afar

She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting

Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess.
I seek the moon's beauty,

and thus, fly to the skies.

To become the dew that quenches her land

To spare the sands, the seas, the skies

I offer her this silent sacrifice

By: Poet Ling

NICE???? I PROMISED YOU A SUPRISE RIGHT? ARE U SMILING NOW??

Tues, 06 Jan 2010.

Went dinner at Astons with a SUPER CHIO BU, who is also my ex colleague, and also her FLING. Got onto my Picanto 15 mins in advance and proceeded to '1 NORTH BUONA VISTA DRIVE' to fetch her at work, but unexpectedly i was caught in at heavy jam along AYE in jurong. My mighty Picanto was moving like a snail almost throughot the whole AYE, causing me to be late for the first time for meeting her. I'M SOSOSO SORRY GODDESS!! Luckily GODDESS is the most understanding person in the universe..And so, she hop on to my mighty Picanto and we head off.

For some reason we headed to town instead of going to VIVOcity which I had suggested earlier, and which I'm more familiar with the roads to the way there. But since the goddess wants to go town, I changed my direction, and as soon as I realised, I'm in somewhere that seems unfamiliar to me, BUT I M STILL NOT LOST YET. Ai Zai and I manage to get back on track, when there was this car ignored road safety and try to eat into my lane go heads on with me, I SLAM MY STEERING WHEEL AND HORN AT THE LOSER. I'M SOSOSO SORRY AGAIN GODDESS FOR FRIGHTENING YOU!!

After a series of road jams, heads on collisions and near life disasters, we scraped through and finally reached town. Found Astons and seems like the food there is somehow similiar to the food that i serve in my Cafe World. Goddess ate rickery chicken which is somehow looks the same as the Tandoori chicken found in Cafe World. And I have found out all of the MOON GODDESS eating habits. I shall list it out here.

1. No spicy food

2. Not hot drinks

3. No coffee or tea

4. prefer Snapple Grape or ribena or just tea(green)

5. icecream is chocolate chip

6. doesnt eat Long Beans

7. No beer

8. but hard branded strong liquers

And here is another list of her weird habits,

1. Only stand on her right side when walking with her

2. On escalators, go up stand behind her, go down stand infront her

3. She is obsessed with the teddy bear fishing machine.

To Be Continue....

What you got.

2009-04-27T04:48:00.002+08:00

I know you are not alone,
but I could just be wrong.

I like the way you take advantage of every man you love.
I seem to know your game, girl.

Yeah those guys wanna treat you right,
cause you r sweeter than apple pie.

Everything you want you got,
Always talking about what you got,
Girl you know that you need to stop.

An old song

2009-02-02T04:04:00.004+08:00

I was in the taxi the other day for chinese new year visiting and the uncle tuned his radio to 933. Suddenly, I heard this old song by my favourite female group, SHE. The song is 恋人未满 incomplete lovers, in other words. The lyrics are quite a meaningful piece of words. Heres a translation of the song's lyrics in English:

Brown eyes by Beyonce
Remember the first day when I saw your face
remember the first day when you smiled at me
you stepped to me and then you said to me
you were the woman I was talking about

remember the first day when you called my house
remember the first day when you took me out
we had butterflies
although we tried to hide it
and we both had a beautiful night

the way we looked each others eyes
the way we talked
the way we laughed
it felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and that you were the one

I call this toasted.

2009-01-31T17:06:00.002+08:00

I'm dunno y I m blogging abt this picture over here but I feel that this pic was an exact re-enactment of wat happened to me in the past. i think just by looking at this pic u shld know wats going on and how sad it is. I was watching tv today when the show Mi Tu(the truth) was repeated again and suddenly I noticed this scene that they had in their opening theme song. sad memories suddenly cause a spark in my mind. heres the story.. Taypinghui wanted to find joanne peh at her workplace after her work. they had some misunderstanding between them so he wanted to find her to thrash things out, cos he still loves her very much. when he saw her walking out of the place, Taypinghui went towards her, but suddenly, this guy name shawn chen went to receive her first. Shawn chen is a very rich guy who is also after joanne peh, while taypinghui was down and out cos he was out from the police force. Seeing that joanne peh is with someone better than him, taypinghui could only turn and walk away, heartbroken.

I was the tay ping hui.

Happier than me 比我幸福

2009-01-20T01:02:00.003+08:00

Looking at the clock in the park,
you were still in my arms from the cold wind.
Not used to reasoning out,
but you understood my silence.
Knowing you all these while,
at least there was a starting and an ending.
Theres many ways to wish someone,
but my heartache couldnt be described.

Please, you must be happier than me,
and my miserable parting wouldnt be wasted.
Painful it is but I will not complain,
an apology isnt necessary to cover up my love for you.
Allowing u to find your love is the least I could do for you.

Please, you must remember you should be happier than me.
and being cruel to myself will be worthwhile.
I silently count down,
to the time that you will slowly forget about me..

望著廣場的時鐘　
你還在我的懷裡躲風不習慣言不由衷　
沉默如何能讓你都懂此刻與你相擁　
也算有始有終祝福有許多種　
心痛卻盡在不言中

請你一定要比我幸福　
才不枉費我狼狽退出再痛也不說苦　
愛不用抱歉來彌補
至少我能成全你的追逐

請記得你要比我幸福　
才值得我對自己殘酷我默默的倒數　
最後再把你看清楚看你眼裡的我好模糊　
慢慢被放逐放心去追逐你的幸福　
別管我　願不願　孤不孤獨　都別在乎

Mi Lu Bing

2009-01-04T15:04:00.001+08:00

说不出的感受
多了一点感动
距离依然拥有
但你会看清
我会承受
我也会成熟

小丑魚

2008-12-27T03:38:00.002+08:00

this is a nice song by alan luo. was listening to it when suddenly i heard this -

始终不敢将爱说出口　当然没有资格去竞争

hi again..

2008-10-22T02:14:00.002+08:00

Felt a sudden urge to blog again after seeing a mysterious tag from some guy/gal who calls him/herself my 'Secret Admirer'...

HEY TO WHOEVER IS HE/SHE or HIM/HER....
HERES THE DEAL - TELL ME WHO YOU TRUELY ARE AND I WILL PROMISE U, YAH ONLY SPECIALLY FOR YOU, THAT I WILL POST MY NONSENSE AGAIN AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK LIKE THOSE TIMES!!!! =D

hehehe.. quite suprised to come about knowing that there is a few least expected loyal viewers who still frequently visit my blog now and then and from time to time.. not saying that you are stalking me, but just maybe purely for poking fun at me at my tagboard or maybe just wanna purely read my posts update on wats happening in my lonely life.. If u are reading this and you happen to belong to one of them, PLS GIMME A TAG with your true identity..

For now, i hope to catch up with friends that i had lost contact with, regardless if they r from my pri, sec or jc.. Just ANYONE who knows me and wanna catch up with me about those priceless moments that we had spent with each other, kindly gimme a call/sms. my HP is 97927898.

GOH

2008-06-14T00:37:00.002+08:00

It has been a super long time since I last blogged. Thats becuz I m quite busy with this year national day parade rehearsals, as an Air Force Guard of Honour.

It isnt just a random thing to become a GOH. As you all know a GOH represents the cream of the army. There must be a few strict citerias to fulfill in order to become a GOH and I fit the bill.

Terms & Conditions:

1) Tall

2) Dark

3) Well built

4) Fit

5) Acceptable looking

This are just some of the physical conditions of a GOH. Your unit has to be amongst the best around in each sector such as you are an elite soldier. Thats y being a GOH is a proud n honoured thing to be in the army.

Loveless

2008-05-03T19:39:00.002+08:00

-Loveless act 1-
Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess.
We seek it thus and take to the sky.
Ripples form on the water surface.
The wandering soul knows no rest.

Even if the morrow is barren of promises,
nothing shall forestall my return.

There is no hate, only joy.
For you are beloved by the goddess.
Hero of the dawn,
Healer of worlds.

My soul corrupted by vengence,
Have endured torment, to end the journey in my own salvation,
and your eternal slumber.
+Genesis+

Embrace your dreams, and whatever happens,
Protect your honour as SOLDIER.
+Angeal+

Whosgoing?

2008-03-08T23:31:00.001+08:00

I m crazy this time.

Coz i m on whosgoing - the most happening website about the singapore clubbing scene.

These guys with me are PLAB FDS clubbers.

Tequila pops, vodka red bulls, Draught beers that night really made me high.

P.S I LUV YOU

2008-02-19T23:35:00.002+08:00

Gal: I get angry over trivial matters.

Its not too late for regrets now.

Guy: I have no regrets.

Gal: I really get angry over trivial matters.

Guy: I'll keep quiet and wait for you to finish throwing your tantrums.

Gal: I'll run away too.

Guy: I promise you that I'll stand here and wait for you.

Guy: Besides being your guardian angel,

I would like to spend the rest of my life with you.

Gal: Why should i promise you?

Guy: Because I dont know who else to love except you..

You are very important.

Wherever you are, I m always just a turn away...

so that you can see me easily.

the way i are

2008-02-11T00:26:00.001+08:00

I aint got no money.

I aint got no car to take you on a date.

I cant even buy you flowers.

I ain't got no Visa.

I ain't got no Red American Express.

I don't got a huge ol' house I rent a room in a house.

I ain't got a motorboat but I can float ya boat.

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Tall

Dark

Strong

Charismatic

Friendly

but a loner on thursday and any other day..

Nikon

2008-02-07T01:14:00.000+08:00

Through the years

I feel that I m somehow similiar to this guy. He has been travelling around the world with his Nikon camara taking pictures with people around. He didnt have a life but travelling and taking pictures with his Nikon. Until one day he came upon a lady and somehow he just couldnt control his feelings but to take pictures of her.

I am as loner as him.

2008-01-30T22:50:00.000+08:00

Fly me to the moon

And let me play among the stars.

Let me see what spring is like

In jupiter and mars.

In other words

Please be true

In other words

I love you.

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I imagined myself in my sports car with a gal along the country road. It was dark and the stars were exceptionally bright that night. I took a Celestial diamond ring from Goldheart out of my pocket and put on the ring on her finger. Her huge smile on her face had described all of her feelings. She was truely happy.

Dumbass

2008-01-08T18:28:00.000+08:00

He is handsome.

He is rich.

He is skillful.

He is gentlemanly.

He is a gambler.

He is also the most crazy guy to hurt his hand this way.

I am Legend

2007-12-25T22:24:00.000+08:00

My name is Ryan.
I am a survivor living in New York city.
I am broadcasting on all AM frequencies.
I will be at the South Street Sea port everyday at midday,
when the sun is highest in the sky.
If you are out there..
If anyone is out there..
I can provide food,
I can provide shelter,
I can provide security.
If there is anybody out there, anybody.
Please, you are not alone.

Huang jin lu

2007-12-20T02:55:00.001+08:00

Me: Hi!
Her: Do I know you?
Me: We've met before.
Her: I can't recall.
Me: Thats a pity
Her: Why are you here then?
Me: You seem a straightforward girl. I'll be candid too. I wan to woo you.
Her: Do you know how many suitors I have?
Me : I'm sure there are alot, but I am confident of beating them all.
Her: You have left an impression on me.
Me: Thanks.
Her: It's the impression of a slippery and self-opinionated fellow.
Me: You are indeed straightforward.
Her: You have wasted 50min of my time.
Me: Since you have already wasted 50min, why not spend another 10min to have coffee with me? You might change your opinion of me.
Her: Spending even an extra minute with a boorish person is unbearable.
Me: ........

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Cant even woo a girl. Felt like a loser again when I saw this part of the show.
Lose le.

Hagen

2007-12-16T23:52:00.000+08:00

Hagen tan

陈孟奇

-有你就好

-我只要你

Maybe you have heard the songs that he wrote before, but you havent listen to the songs he sang.

Nominated for best songwriter in Singapore music awards 07.

His creations, they sang before - jolin, wilber, weilian, jocie, milubing.

BUT, he was a loser in project superstar 1.

and maybe I support losers as I m a loser myself too.

Man At Twenty

2007-12-07T01:06:00.000+08:00

Past Vs Present
There is always some things about me that cant change.
-Tall
-Dark
-Strong
-Well built
-HOT

Man At Twenty
I'm turning 20 soon. Watching the ch 8 drama show 'Man at forty' has reminded me about something. I am getting old and I am still a loser.

AKON

2007-11-13T20:26:00.000+08:00

u rubbing your back and touching your neck,

ur body is moving u humping n jumping

u smiling n grinning n looking at me.

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this was wat that happened to me. Is this the highest level of clubbing? I lose le.

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If u see me in the club, i will acting real nice.

If u see me on the floor, i've been watching all night.

2007-11-03T22:00:00.000+08:00

I love to admire my tall, sturdy and well-built body in the mirror.

I love being surrounded by girls while dancing.

Once in a while, I get a treat from someone.

I do have a healthy lifestyle of playing golf and vollyball.

And I love this unpressurised lifestyle now.

Pier

2007-10-25T00:11:00.000+08:00

He is single. He has a well paid job. Everyday after work he visits the pub for a drink and during the weekends he plays his favourite sport. He leads a carefree lifestyle.

He has his own problems n troubles too. Every month he max out his credit card limit. He uses another credit card to fill the hole of the credit card. Sometimes he wishes for a simplier lifestyle.

Is this going to be the lifestyle that I will be leading in the years to come??

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IPPT results for LCP RYAN LING
1. Chin Up - 6 (pass)
2. Sit Up - 41 (gold)
3. Shuttle Run - 10.2 (silver)
4. SBJ - 216 (pass)
However,
5. 2.4km run timing - 12.40 (FAIL by 20 sec)
Hence,
Results = FAIL
Promotion status = DELAYED
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Possible reasons on my failure
1. had dengue fever the week before
2. too much drinking n eating
3. irregular sleeps
4. fated to fail n lose
5. I'm weak
6. luck is always not on my side
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Phrase of the week
- Every other night is just another lonely night
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Maybe I'm starting to get tired of losing again.....

irreplacable

2007-10-16T00:35:00.000+08:00

U must not know bout me

U must think I'm playing

I can have another u in a minute

matter fact she will be here in a minute, baby

U must not know bout me

U must think I'm playing

I can have another u in an hour

So dont u ever for a second get to thinking that ur irreplacable.

So since I'm not ur everything

I'm not giving u anything

Nothing at all to u

Baby I'm not getting u nothing no way

Go ahead n shed ur tears

Coz the truth that the matter is-

replacing u was so easy

To the right to the right

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I m drunk at last... Someone pls save me......

2007-10-07T23:17:00.000+08:00

When the sun shines
We’ll shine together

Told you I'll be here forever

That I'll always be your friend

Took an oath Imma stick it out 'till the end

Now that it's raining more than ever

Know that we still have each other

You can stand under my Umbrella
You can stand under my Umbrella

A picture of my recent favourite hangout. Met both old and new friends there. A place which I can intoxicate myself and temporary escape from my harsh reality. Late weekend nights are no longer lonely and painful for me anymore.

MOS sm00ve

ryan's organisation

2007-10-07T04:37:00.000+08:00

Ryan's Organisation

An organisation known as Dragontooth. This mysterious group has apparently been carrying out acts of ‘justice’, meting out capital punishment to criminals who they deem deserve to die...

They suspect that Ryan (Ix Shen) is a member of Dragontooth and forensic expert Hu Xi Cun (Thomas Ong) is in fact the leader of Dragontooth.

Usher

2007-10-06T19:50:00.000+08:00

Most of these girls be confusing me
I don't know if they really love me or they using me
maybe is the money, or maybe they ain't used to me
Cause they were depressed and now they are abusing me
That's why I need me a girl to be true to me
Know about the game, and know how it do to me
Without a girl on my side, shit I ruin me

I need a girl to ride, ride, ride
I need a girl to make my wife
I need a girl who's mine all mine
I need a girl in my life
I need a girl to ride, ride, ride
I need a girl to be my wife
Nobody else cuz she's all mine
I need a girl in my life

Nth else matters

2007-09-16T16:22:00.000+08:00

I know you're lonely than anyone else
We're here to stay
Netherless a little lonely
Throughout the seasons as long as eternity

We've got all night
And nothing else matters
Lets make it happen
Lets make it last
Come to my side
Hold my hand now girl
We've got all night babe
We'r here to stay

Deep in my heart there was an ache
When you're around its fading away

As you like it

2007-09-09T03:39:00.000+08:00

I m just a guy who likes to go with the flow

There is no sense when your heart takes control

I need your whispers to speak out now

I like my music clear and loud

I m waiting to show my emotions to you

Be in the world you never knew

Dont need any justifications or reasons to do

Thats what I want to do.

Room in my heart

2007-08-30T18:14:00.000+08:00

RYAN Zhu Jiankang (Qi Yuwu) is left with legs of uneven lengths and walks with an abnormal gait. Cheng Kaixin (Fiona Xie), is a bright and lively girl who has loved Jiankang like her own big brother since young.

Ding Wenhui (Chen Hanwei) is a charming and successful young Singaporean man. Wenhui works in an advertising firm. He and Kaixin fall for each other and become a couple.

When their relationship comes to light, RYAN was devastated. RYAN tells himself that his handicap will never put him in the same league as the charismatic Wenhui, and thus silently wishes them well.

No one knows whether RYAN still holds on to the undying love for his childhood sweetheart Kaixin, deep in his heart…

Watch the show every mon - fri at 5.30pm.

Am i a DUD to u?

2007-08-20T17:32:00.000+08:00

Im not good in saying nice things.

I dont know how could I console u either.

Actually i do understand your pain.

Havent i been through the pain that u are having now?

Do you know...

I keep asking myself

Am i so abhorrent to u?

Why have you not taken note the feelings that i have for u?

Am i such a dud to u?

I never ask u to accept me or to be with me.

I just want u to be happy.

Even if u are with him, i can take it so long as u r happy.

If i can do it,

I'd like to bear all your sufferings...

so long as u shed not a drop of tear and u r always happy.

I m prepared to pay any price....

dating a gal

2007-07-30T00:39:00.000+08:00

We went for dinner.

We watched movie together.

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Why do i have the same problem as him when approaching a gal?

"I have no problem in charging at my enemy, but when I see her, I get tongue-tied."

"I am a all rounder, but when it comes to relationships, I fare badly."

Is one really seeking their own trouble when going after a girl?

Hansheng

2007-07-20T01:02:00.000+08:00

In career, he is

-shrewd

-intelligent

-despicable

In love, he is

-sincere

-true

-persevered

On the whole, he is

-tall

-rich

-gd looking

just like me....

BMT

2007-07-18T17:46:00.000+08:00

Whole lot knock it down!!
Down, down, down...

Crunches position change!!
Up, Up, Up...

Buddha clap 20 counts of 4...

1,2,3,4.. 2,2,3,4...

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3 of my favourites exercises in amy training.. I am a true soldier now..

But I am still a loser afterall... So be it....

2007-07-15T01:36:00.000+08:00

I am a marksman..

I am a parachutist..

I m from special operation forces..

I am a diver..

I am a sniper..

I am a leader and a winner..

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But I become a loser when it comes to approaching the girl i like..

Why am I like this?

I lose le..

My ns life

2007-07-14T03:28:00.001+08:00

Ryan(Tay Ping Hui) is a Guard of Honour of the SAF and that is his biggest pride and joy. The calm, intelligent and highly skilled Ryan is very much valued by the SAF. Women tend to swoon at the sight of the tall, well-built Ryan, but when in contact with a lady that he likes, Ryan’s mind turns blank and he puts on a cool front. This is why he has never had a girlfriend.

A chance encounter with Ouyang Peipei (Felicia Chin) at the swimming pool, a Captain and an instructor with the School of Artillery, leaves Ryan infatuated with her. He tries to strike a conversation when he meets her at a familiarization course later on, but his ‘coolness’ acts up.

The very feminine Peipei is the dream lover of many men. Ryan is merely one of many who have fallen for her. Ryan wishes to try and win her affection, but every time he comes close to her, his mind turns blank and he is rendered tongue-tied again. This, to Peipei, is a sign of weakness and she forms a bad impression of Ryan.

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Looks like the problem lies with me.. No doubt that I m tall, well built, calm... but why am i always a loser when it comes to such things? Am i fated to be a loner? I lose again..

Rynn Vs Ryan

2007-07-10T20:12:00.000+08:00

english name: Rynn Lim Yu Zhong
date of birth: 29-12-78
height: 176cm
weight: 64kg
zodiac sign: capricorn

english name: Ryan Ling Pu Cheng
date of birth: 22-04-88
height: 188cm
weight: 76kg
zodiac sign: taurus

Rynn Lin Yu Zhong vs
Ryan Ling Pu Cheng
So who is better?

Soldier

2007-06-29T23:20:00.000+08:00

Outfield
-long 4
-jungle hat
-camoflage scarf
-load bearing vest
-field pack
-M16

I am a true infantry soldier..

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Tell me,

Have you ever loved and lost somebody?

Wished there was a chance to say i'm sorry?

Can't you see?That's the way i feel, about you and me, baby

Have you ever felt that your heart was breaking?

Looking down the road you should be taking?

I should know, cause i loved and lost the day i let you go

Grey Beret

2007-06-10T16:42:00.000+08:00

Just look at my beret..

Its not red(commandos), not brown(guards), not green(infantry), not black(support units), not blue(clerk/storeman).

I m a trooper from the republic of singapore air force - RSAF.

So am I....

Honoured?

Proud?

Happy?

Excited?

Not at all. After going through 7 months of shit and tough training I still feel like a loner. Although army has turned me into a more

1. fitter

2. stronger

3. muscular

4.darker

person, somehow I feel that I have been seperated from the outside world. All i know now is only stuffs about millitary. The hobbies and interests that i used to do in the past has slowly eroded away from my life. Basketball, doing tutorials, swimming, and cycling are not in my routine anymore.

I m not sure what i am doing now... Its stirring inside me and i feel so confused... maybe what i need is a life now to save myself...

Commando

2007-05-31T16:25:00.001+08:00

Commandoes

Red Beret

Captain

Ranger

Medal of honour

Master parachutist

Professional Diver

Senior Airborne

Marksmen

IPPT gold award

Most importantly.... he has a pretty wife.....

And thats not me...

I lose le...

LCP

2007-05-19T19:42:00.000+08:00

Rank/Name: LCP Ryan (in 3 weeks time)

Vocation: In the Air Force

Porridge

2007-03-04T01:34:00.000+08:00

This is my platoon photo..

This is my safra membership card...

But this is the pathetic me swallowing my pride, going against my principles, and losing my ego, just for a bowl of porridge...

I m truely a failure in life....

PC LING

2007-02-18T22:41:00.000+08:00

I love my company..
ORION..

I love my no.4 uniform..
P C LING..

And I love my new wife..
M16S1..

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In this season of loneliness,
整条街都是恋爱的人,
我独自走在暖风的夜..

More songs

2007-01-28T17:19:00.000+08:00

Training to be soldiers
Training to be soldiers.
Fight for our land.
Once in a life, two years of our time.
Have you ever wondered
Why must we served
Because we loved our land
And we want it to be free to be free ya.
Stand up
Be on your guard
C'mon everybody
do your part

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A is for airborne
I is for in the ski
R is for rough and tough
B is for born to fly
O is for on to go
R is for ready
N is for never quit
E is for everything

down by the river
took a little walk
ran into some terrorist
had a little talk
we push them "HAA"
kick them "HAA"
push them kick them"HAA HAA"
into river
let them to drown
hey don't be a fool somebody says we are no.2
"PUI"we are no.1
bravo bravo all the way
we like is here we like it here we found ourself a home
a home
a home sweet home.
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They say that in the army,
the food is very nice
you ask for curry chicken
they give u chao ta rice

(Chours )
I don wanna led a army life..
i juz wanna have a simple life,
PC please let mi go
OC say no no no
MAma i WannA go Home....

They say in the army,
The pay is very high,
U ask for $100
they pay u $99

=Chours
They say in the army,
the sargent very nice,
u ask a stupid question,
they scold u chao chee bye
=Chorus

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i'm a steamroller baby
just rolling down the line
i'm a steamroller baby
just marching down the line
so you better get out of my way now
before i roll all over you
so you better get out of my way now
before i roll all over you
just a little "wuuuu"little "wuuuu"little rock n roll
just a kinda "wuuuu"kinda "wuuuu"kinda soul to soul
i'm a bravo worrior
just rolling down the line
i'm a bravo worriorjust marching down the line

Purple Light

2007-01-13T22:26:00.000+08:00

I ask my gal
To take a walk (x2)
Down orchard road.
Bypass mandrain
To centrepoint
Where we had lunch
At MacDonalds

We had fillet
And an apple pie
We shared a cup
Of lemon lime.

Holding on to her hands
Looking into her eyes
And I ask her
To be my valentine

There was one night
there was no light (x2)
so we use torch light
Torch light no light
so we use candle light
Candle light no light
so we use to moon light
Moon Light no light
so we use star light
Star light no light
so we use PURPLE LIGHT

Purple light,
in the valley.
That is where,
I want to be.
With my three best companions,
With my rifle and my buddy and me.
5BX, Sibei jialat.
SOC, lagi worse.
Every morning, doing PT.
With my rifle and my buddy and me.
Booking out, see my girlfriend.
Saw her with another man.
Heartbroken, back to Army.
With my rifle and my buddy and me.
ORD, back to study.
Got degree, so happy.
Can't forget, days in Army
With my rifle and my buddy and me.
Purple light, at the war front.
That is where, my buddy lies.
If I die..would you bury me.
With my rifle and my buddy and me.

What loner r u?

2006-12-09T14:44:00.000+08:00

(The 10 levels of being a Loner)
-->Amatuer Loner
-->Elementary Loner
-->Novice Loner
-->Intermediate Loner
-->Social Loner
-->Seasoned Loner
-->Professional Loner
-->Experienced Loner
-->Veteran Loner
-->Spiritual Loner

SAD

2006-12-07T03:17:00.000+08:00

I m still healing myself after the huge blow, loser-ness n loneliness on prom. Who said that prom is an enjoyable n happy moment? I totally disagree now after the very date which I will remember for my whole life - 30/11/2006. The very day I shall mark the moment which I had bring my loser level to a higher height - the prom loser which was initially at the true loser level.
One of my fellow loner told me that the lowest level of a loner was the Seasoned Loner. And me of course at a higher level, is called the Veteran Loner. Whats the different between these 2 terms then? At seasonal level, one is just getting used to being a loner for a starting short period of time. It could be due to some changes in life that may have caused this change, however at this stage, one is still able to get back into life quite easily. However, at my stage which is the Veteran level, one has been through many experiences and a long period of time of being a loner. He is all by his own at any occasion. Emotional, he is never happy and always envious of the people surrounding him who has a great exciting life, while his is dull, boring, and alone. On top to that, he has lost his confidence and guts totally, resulting in him to be stuck in this form forever.
Every morning when i wake up, I would ask myself the same question - Am I a loner today? I cant seem to change the fact that i am really a loner and nth can be changed about it. Its like a curse which can never be lifted. Everyday seems endless, blurred and lost to me. Why isnt my life as fantastic, exciting and interesting as others?
Attending prom is like adding salt to my wounds. In fact this wound has been infected very badly as i m feeling the blues everytime I recall about prom. Knowing that my days are numbered, I have a simple request to ask whoever is reading this blog right now... which is to pretend that I had never existed at all or you had never known me in the first place. Erase me off from your memory bank.

By the way, if you think that u have reach the stage of a Veteran Loner, pls do give me a tag and identify youself.

Carlsberg

2006-11-27T17:45:00.000+08:00

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HI.. Need a lift to vivo city?
This festive season, there is a party in every carlsberg.
It doesnt get any better than this.

He's got the girls, he's got the car, he's got the moves, he's got the charisma, he's got everything. When you girls cant get a cab, you never run into a suave man in his wonder-wheels like those girls do.

Who is he? I guess u shld noe the ans too...

2006-11-26T14:18:00.000+08:00

The drama opens with fascinating scenery in Greece, the destination Guan Xiaotong (Chae Rim) and the travel mate she found herself over the Internet, Li Yaoxiang (Peter Ho), are heading to. Arguing with Li time after time in the trip, Guan packs up to return home out of spite. She then meets Lu Enqi (Su You-peng), who has been upset with his mother's matchmaking. The two decide to head for the Greek island of Santorini and begin to fall for each other. Their love story, however, does not develop into what they expected, and they begin to fall into the love entanglement with Li.
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This is another romantic story which happened in Greece. From a simple introduction of a handshake between 2 stranges, turn into a complicated triangle relationship which evolves between a couple.
I wonder why all romantic scenes happen only in Europe, such as Rome and Athens. Maybe this is call fate, which I guess may never happen to me as a loser in this lifetime.

Perhaps I should make it to Rome or Athens one day to create a story of my own....

Triumph in the skies

2006-11-18T23:23:00.000+08:00

Ryan is an outstanding, mature and serious pilot working for Solar Airways. His best friend cum fellow pilot, Waiyong, on the other hand is flirtatious and a tad less outstanding than him.
Isabelle is a dreamy and romantic girl who has strong belief in fate and is waiting for her Mr Right to appear. She believes that the guy who gives her a Triangel doll and who retrieves her bracelet is the one meant for her. She puts a notice on the staff notice board to ask for help to get the Triangel doll. During a trip to Australia, Ryan actually found the Triangel and they arranged to meet upon his return. On the flight back, a passenger Zoe is feeling unwell and the air turbulence sends her into a panic. Ryan calms her down and he leaves a good impression on her.Ryan accidentally drops the doll after the flight lands and it is being picked up by Zoe. Ryan and Belle lose the chance to meet. However, a chance meeting in Rome plus some planned and unplanned coincidence meetings spark off their short romance.

me: you've dropped ur bracelet!!
she: thanks..
me: your welcome..
she: where you're from?
me: I m from hongkong, how about u?
she: me too.. bye bye
me: bye bye

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Another story about love and fate.
Does true love and fate really exist?
I dare not even think about it.
cos this will never ever happen to me.
I will WAKE UP and accept my fate as a loser.

Part 2 of this story will be coming soon....
So stay tuned to my blog...

Kiss Kiss

2006-10-30T00:51:00.000+08:00

親親 - 梁靜如

I feel it,
I smell it,
I breathe it.
It was there,
my green days.

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A touching song by liang jing ru. Its a song about her first kiss whom she gave it to her first boyfriend back then during her school days. Both of them were secretly in love with each other and were shy to express their love for each other. However, fate brought them together when both of them caught each other placing an apple in each others locker. What a touching and romantic story.... and this will never happen to a loner like me.
WAKE UP U LOSER.... haixxxx

This shld be my last post b4 the exams. More sad stories about love to come after the exams, cos i wanna keep a record about all romantic situations that would never happen in my life as a loner.......

An enhanted love

2006-10-23T23:21:00.000+08:00

As usually i will blog about any new drama series on channel 8 at 9pm. A levels will not be an excuse for me to stop blogging and watching drama series. This is my loner hobby n loner life. However, this will all soon come to an end when I go in army in december. The time when i stop blogging would mean that I am in the army.

Alright.. Time for some character analysis...

Zhiyun: Starring pierre png. I call him Mr handsome rich guy. He is the guy that every girl wishes for. Money, looks, personality - he has it all. I just dun understand why would he choose a betel nut girl rather that a hot babe. I just have to say that he is lucky that 2 women loves him truely.

Ah fei: Starring Adam chen. He is a dumbass. Falling in love with someone who has already rejected him. As they say 'being loved is better than loving someone'. Why does he still insist to be with that betel nut woman? Thats why I say men has not chance at all if he is not rich and handsome. To stand a chance, these 2 citeria must be met.
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To all friends of the loner,

I just have a simple request. To you it may seem silly but to me it bears a significance. I hope that before I book into the army, everyone could at least wish me farewell. Maybe just a tag will do. Thats all that I wish for before I go NS.

NS

2006-10-15T18:33:00.000+08:00

I'm going in soon, and very very soon, in less than 2 months. No one would miss this loner over here after I'm gone. Its ok. I have accepted my fate. Maybe going in would be better for me instead. Those reading this pls give me a tag if you wanna wish me farewell for the last time.

2006-10-08T21:57:00.000+08:00

Ma de... My face is totally like shit in this year's class photo. Or maybe my face is always like shit. And my hair is like distorted due to the photo editing of the background. Noticed that I m actually taller than the LT3 building in the pic. =/

No looks
No face
No hair
No appearance
No confidence
No no NO...

Zheng Weilun

2006-10-05T23:38:00.000+08:00

He is charming and handsome.

He is a fillial and good son.

He falls in love with her and hopes to give her happiness.

Unfortunately,

The girl did not accept him and dated another man.
He proposed to her but only to be rejected.
He confronts his rival but only to be beaten up.

His dreams, hopes and life are all being shattered apart.

He is a LOSER.

Who is he?

He is R-Y-A-N.

Family matters.

2006-09-28T22:25:00.000+08:00

Weilun Vs Gao Ming

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Weilun:
A devoted man. He has always cared greatly for Shu Yang and has his mind set on marrying her. While she does not love Weilun, Shu Yang is deeply aware that Weilun is good husband material.

Gao Ming:
Shu Yang and Gao Ming are frequently thrown together as they face each other in court as opposing lawyers in the divorce cases they represent. Notwithstanding the verbal battles in court, they become deeply attracted to each other.
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So wat did i learn from this drama?
Never end up like the 2 of them because I feel that weilun is a dog and a loser while gao ming is a toy and puppet when comes to loving a girl called shuyang. Although both may seem very successful in their careers and life, they are a failure in love.
Let me talk about weilun first. He has fallen in love with shuyang ever since she first saw her when he was a kid. He would try every means to cheer her up whenever she is feeling down. Let me tell u that NO guy in the world would do that for no reason if he doesnt like the gal. However his love is never appreciated or reciprocrated by her. And he isnt bothered if she likes him or not as long as he can make her happy everyday. That is not being noble. That is being a loser.
As for gao ming, i have nothing much to say about him. All his misery is caused only by 1 gal called shuyang and her indecisiveness. What does she actually wants from him? One day lovers another day enemies. Treating him like her toy by playing with him whenever she feels bored or very free.
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I feel that this story is so real as if it really happened to me.

Sweety

2006-09-23T23:25:00.000+08:00

The reason for changing into a new blogskin...........

ma de.. why even the stars that i idolise are also being discriminated? I lose le.

Sweety are my new idols now.

To the "Hotbabe" on my tagboard

2006-09-17T23:44:00.000+08:00

Hotbabe,
This is for you.

Exams

2006-09-15T17:05:00.000+08:00

ATTENTION!

PLEASE BE REMINDED THAT YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO BRING INTO THE EXAMINATION VENUE UNAUTHOURISED MATERIALS OR COMPUTER AIDS CAPABLE OF STORING VISUAL OR VERBAL INFORMATION SUCH AS PDAs, POCKET PCs, HANDPHONES OR PAGERS..............

BLAH BLAH BLAH BLEAHZZZZZZZZ.......

No life, no outing, no happiness, no money, no looks.... And now an additional point about me.... No results.

Gao Ming

2006-09-11T23:26:00.000+08:00

I am Gao Ming (brilliant).

I am a promising lawyer and I am brilliant.

Catch me in the new drama series "Fa ting qiao jia ren" every mon - fri at 9pm.

Where is Shuyang?

Women?

2006-09-10T00:09:00.000+08:00

Mr Norman. I respect u from being a playboy and having the ability in attracting hot babes. However, I look down on you as you are a gigglo and a puppet of Melissa. Being a man, I feel that our powers should never ever be undermine by a woman or always being at their command or control...
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WHAT WOMEN ARE TESTING?
Now, women will test men for ALL KINDS ofthings. Some women will test to see if you have money. Some will test to see if you'll SPEND yourmoney on them. Some will test to see if you're intelligent. And some will test to see if you're loyal. The VERY FIRST thing a woman wants to "know"about you is whether or not you're a submissive, ass-kissing boy who has no balls. And if you ARE, then you might as well throw in the towel.

For instance, let's say that you're standing at a bar talking to some friends, and you make eyecontact with the cute girl standing six feet awayfrom you. What do most guys do? They look away. And they do it FAST. Of course, most guys will LOOK AGAIN within a few seconds. But it's already too late. TEST FAILED.

HOW TO DEAL WITH TESTS?
Next time you're interacting with a woman and she does or says something that makes your gut tense up, you're probably being tested. When a woman tells you what to do, she's testing you. When a woman tries to change plans or cancel at the last minute, she's testing you. When a woman asks you to buy her something, she's testing you. When a woman nags, whines, or complains, she'stesting you. Learn to SPOT IT when it's happening.

Most men respond by trying to win the woman's approval. If she tries to cancel plans at the lastminute, you'll say "Oh, no problem". If she complains about something, you'll say"I'm sorry, let me fix it".

Most tests will be tests to see if you'll allow her to CONTROL YOU. If you DO allow a woman to CONTROL you, you will lose. And you can take that one to the bank. You will lose in one way or another, almost guaranteed. Women don't want men that they can control. So make sure you pass those tests first. The more you pay close attention, the more you'll see the subtle tests that women are using you.
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If only I came across this article long ago...
I have failed.
I lose le.

Mr Fighting

2006-09-02T00:20:00.000+08:00

Ye Youli

我像个胆小鬼
只敢想像只敢暗恋
就是不敢放手追

难道要很多考验还要很多抱歉
才能够证明我会爱你到永远
寻寻觅觅我们还是又回到了原点

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Why is love so miserable? There are so many obstacles and hurdles for one must overcome in order to pursue their true love. Some will come to the point that after so much stuggles and pursuation, they unknowingly returned back to their original self - a loner without love.

Ye Youli is pretty cute.

new skin

2006-09-01T00:19:00.000+08:00

So how is my new blog skin? I know its gayish. But tang tang 1.88, my blogskin should be something as hot as the 183 club. They are my new role models to getting a life. So how can I learn from 183club?
I realised from 183club that to get a life, you must meet 1 simple requirement first - cannot be HUM. This is because without guts, nothing can ever be accomplished. To add on to your life, you must be hot, and to be hot, you must meet another 4 simple requirement - tall, dark, strong and handsome. These are just the fundamentals when gals look for in a guy. And being a guy with no gals, you are not hot.
Next would be the life determining step - be with the right friends and right CCA. It would be difficult or sometimes impossible to hot by yourself. Being in a group would be like a catalyst to speed up your process of getting a life. People are more noticable in numbers. Being in the right cca would show your worth and this could help to market yourself.
I regret how i spent my 2 lonely years in pjc. Just take 1 wrong step, and without the elements by your side, it could ruin you. I have learnt my lesson at a high cost.

An umbrella.

2006-08-24T00:46:00.000+08:00

擦干你的眼泪
忘记就会有更美好的视野
看看你的眼前
我是你的绝对
带你通往那幸福的终点线
你要的是晴天
送你一把伞

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Another nice song by 183 club. Nth to blog about today.. maybe not feeling well so no mood to blog.. Haix

I'm so hot

2006-08-18T23:33:00.000+08:00

Oh Sweet Heart your Heart my Heart
我的心慢慢融化
快点来安慰我的Cold cold Heart
Oh Sweet Hot my Heart so hot
一点点爱的火花
无法的自拔爱你
Oh Baby I'm so hot.

URL:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SflxmlqHGak

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What is the defination of hot? Which type of guys is deemed as hot to them? What makes a guy hot? Why being hot is good? When are you considered hot? How hot is hot?

I think 183club is the best role models of wat is called hot. Why?
-tall
-tanned
-talented
-muscular
-good-looking
-nice hairstyles
-popular among gals

I lose le.

183

2006-08-17T22:56:00.000+08:00

-Name: Ryan
-Height:188cm
-About him: tall, dark, but a loner

V
S

-Name: 183 club
-Average height: 183cm
-About them: tall, dark, and got life as many gals idolise them

Qn: The sample mean of a guy's height is 188cm and variance 188cm(eg, ryan). 183 club claims that their average height is 183cm and so they got life and they are not loners. Find at a 1% significance level, a guy (eg ryan) having a height of more than 183cm got life and not loner.

H0: u=183 vs H1: u>183
Level of significance 1%, Z>x
Test value < x

Conclusion:
Since the test value falls outside the critcal region, we have sufficient evidence to reject H0, ie guys having a height more than 183 got no life and is a loner. (eg ryan, as his height is more than the average height of those 5 tall gays)
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How? Even maths can prove that I do not have a life and I am a loner. Is it a logic and a fact that I am a loner? Is this the answer to the question why am I a loner? Looks like theoretically, I am a loner, so to speak.

Mr R

2006-08-12T23:00:00.000+08:00

HEY U, Mr.Ryan
爱你耍Q的指数
电流像瀑布好像重力加速度
你又傻又无辜与生俱来的功夫
加快脚步要加入连署

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How? My days are getting lonelier and lonelier everyday. Is this going to be my type of life until I am gone? Why do I have to be such a loner? Is it because I am Mr Q who is dumb and innocent(我又傻又无辜)? I think I should just stop thinking too much...

And this gal from glamours is HOT n CUTE... <3

PS: FRENS/STALKERS/PASSERBYS/LONERS/WHOEVER PLS DO GIVE ME A TAG IF U VISIT MY BLOG!! MY BLOG IS VIEWED 100+ TIMES FOR THIS MONTH BUT NO ONE IS TAGGING!! PLS SHOW SOME FEELINGS FOR THIS LONER HERE!!! =)

I wanna 解脱.

2006-08-10T22:53:00.000+08:00

解脱是肯承认这是个错
我不应该还不放手
你有自由走我有自由好好过
解脱是懂擦干泪看以后
找个新方向往前走
这世界辽阔
我总会实现一个梦
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I thought I had freed myself from bitterness and put the past behind me, as what is mentioned in the above. But somehow, heaven is trying to make a fool out of me. Is this fate or just another misery?

How?

2006-08-06T02:08:00.000+08:00

应该挑拨你和他我想这是最好的时机

只是当你哭著说你还爱他不忍离开他

我竟努力扮演你和他之间的和事佬

应该劝你离开他可是我却怎么也做不到

因为当你笑著说我最好了是你知心朋友

我不敢也没有勇气告诉你別把我当朋友
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Cant think words to describe my feelings right now. But what is going through my mind is this part of a song in the above. Kinda similiar to the situation of wat I was facing in the past. Its all over for now.

Brand new

2006-08-02T20:48:00.000+08:00

I am but a foolish man with only his love in his heart.
Bring him home when the sun is set, but I will never let you go.
All I need is your love to hear you say that I am yours.
So tell me now and show me how I could be your better man.
I'll surrender everything just to be with you.
There is no one in the world like you, you make me real.
And I'll cross every ocean just to be with you.
Baby you're my dreams and you're my soul, you make me real.
Just like a flame you're blended in my soul,
you wake me from the cold, you make me real.
Just like a flame you brightened up my world,
every corner, there is a feel for you.
You really make me feel brand new.

What is love?

2006-08-01T18:54:00.000+08:00

What is love?

"We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens.It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that doesn't diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives."

Quoted by my xuehai tutor.

2006-07-29T21:03:00.000+08:00

love @ zero degrees (ai qing ling du c)

2006-07-29T20:59:00.000+08:00

Rattlesnake

2006-07-23T00:26:00.000+08:00

Yixin is a sassy, driven and positive fashion design student who never feels sorry for herself and never allows herself get down. Despite her complicated and less-than-rosy family background, she makes the best out of every situation. She meets She Weixiang and learns that he is in the e-commerce business dealing with fashion. However, Weixiang is secretly attracted to the outspoken Yixin. Yixin doesn’t feel any chemistry with Weixiang so she writes him off as only a friend, but he falls in love with her from the beginning. Romance soon blossoms between Yixin and Guobin.

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So what I am trying to prove here? Never end up yourself into a situation similiar to weixiang, which is secretly falling in love with someone, but in the end she just treats him only as a friend. Ironically, I pity and admire him at the same time. It's really painful when someone you love writes you off as a friend, but able to sacrifice for her is truely admirable. Waiting for the day that she will accept him seems very far away, but seeing her happy and giving her the best is the most important thing to him now. It may seems stupid to others that this is a wishful part of his thinking, but everything he does for her is just for an exchange of a smile on her face. Knowing that she has fallen in love with another guy has broken his heart into bits and pieces, but what can he do? He could only give them their blessings, fall out quietly, and protect her from afar.
He has lost.

Sad again.

2006-07-17T23:37:00.000+08:00

I have been asking my friends why do I feel that something is missing in my life and why do I suddenly feel so tired in life. I need some solutions.

Time schedule:
Mon - go home at 3pm.
Tues - go home at 3pm
Wed - remedial till 5pm
Thurs - go home 4.30 + xuehai
Fri - go home at 3 + xuehai
Sat - xuehai

Wondering wat is xuehai? Visit www.xuehai.com.sg

Shall resist to online lesser now. Is this my loner life so to speak?

Yixin. She also plays initial d same like me.

Sad, so sad.

2006-07-15T00:14:00.000+08:00

--My 20 Nos' in life--
1) No life
2) No looks
3) No money
4) No outing
5) No intelligence
6) No guts
7) No manners
8) No values
9) No figure/fitness
10) No luck
11) No confidence
12) No determination
13) No motivation
14) No style
15) No humour
16) No strength
17) No face
18) No results
19) No win
20) No love.

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It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation.
And it's getting more and more absurd.
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over?
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word.

What do I do to make you want me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when it's all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word.

Italy Vs France

2006-07-09T16:58:00.000+08:00

If italy wins, i win $11.
If france wins, i win $15.75.
If both draws at 90 mins, i lose $10.

Sad ending

2006-07-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

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有多少愛能重來?
多少人願意等待?
失去之後才明白走進回憶的安排
一幕一幕的對白上演我們的未來
期待原來是一種傷害深愛的人一離開
是我不敢忽略妳給我的愛
現在我只想　回到最初的時候
不願讓妳再淚流
寂寞之後只有妳會陪著我現在我只想　
回到最初的時候　
我知道妳還愛著我親愛的妳
請妳握緊我的手請妳看看我　
請看需要妳的我一切重頭
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I promised you before that i will look after you forever.
If your operation fails, I willing to be your feet forever.
I promise that you would never feel lonely.
I will wait for you.

2006-07-05T22:34:00.000+08:00

Ai Qing Ling Du C

Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!Wo Xi Huan Ni!

Wo Xi Huan Ni!

I'm stucked between left n right.
N what weilian said in the trailer is true for me.

ps.. I love u.

2006-07-03T01:10:00.000+08:00

Ni Yuan Yi Dang Wo Shen Ming Zhong Zhen Zheng De Tian Shi Ma?
I will be your guardian angel forever.

P.S… I Luv U
Xin (Roy Chiu) and Xiaoyue (Tammy Chen Yirong) first meet at their university’s orientation. Both fall for each other at first sight; however, Xin’s lack of initiative causes Xiaoyue much confusion and distress. One of the games played during orientation activities is "Guardian Angel". Xin is arranged to be Xiaoyue's guardian angel, and thus has an excuse to watch over her with every possible ounce of care and concern.

Xin plans to express his feelings to Xiaoyue during the orientation party by preparing a small note from the "Guardian Angel" game, bearing the words – “I will be your guardian angel forever.” But an insignificant misunderstanding destroys their budding love relationship. The note that Xin has prepared for Xiaoyue remains undelivered. Years later, Xiaoyue is now a well-known jewellery designer. She moves into a condominium only to discover that the place has also been leased to a playboy named Feng (Qi Yuwu). Both parties refuse to give way. At this point, Yan (Roy Chiu in a dual role) appears and claims he is here to handle tenancy and rental problems. With his gift of the gab, he manages to convince the two to come to a compromise and live together as flatmates.

Xiaoyue and Feng are constantly getting on each other's nerves Yan’s mediation leaves the two feeling his participation in their affairs is oddly enthusiastic. Xiaoyue finds it strange that Yan seems to turn up in the weirdest situations in time to make things better between Feng and herself, she develops a liking for Yan and feels a peculiar familiarity about Yan’s caring ways. The two bickering flatmates eventually become lovers, under the subtle guidance and arrangement from Yan. After that, Yan disappears suddenly. Xiaoyue feels an emptiness in her heart, a feeling she finds strangely familiar. She chances upon a little piece of paper in Yan's bag, written by Xin – “I will be your guardian angel forever.” At last, Xiaoyue realises that Yan is in fact...

Insp chen is back.

2006-06-30T13:18:00.000+08:00

I'm finally back from Taiwan. That is the reason behind why i didnt have the time to blog for a week. These are some of the pics that i took in Taiwan. Nice? (=

Cant love.

2006-06-18T18:56:00.000+08:00

Oh~ I ask girlfriend
How you been
来去了几回
我从来没有想过爱情会变得如此无奈
是命运吗难道难过是上天的安排没办法
天天的每天的心思到底由谁来陪
我诚心你诚意
但周围扰人环境始终让我们无法在这里自由相连
我精彩你发呆
两颗心不安的摇摆
应该有的未来是否真的那么的无奈期待
舍不得再伤害You're GirlMy Girl My Friend
How Much I Love YouSo So Much Baby
看着你哀愁要我如何怎么承受面对
I'm Sorry
You're My Sweetheart
My LoveMy One & Only Baby
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I'm addicted to this song again. The first time when i heard this song, I felt that its rhythm is very very good. The guy's part is about him loving the girl very much, but bcos of work or some reasons, he cant be with her all the time, hence giving her insecurity. The rap potrays this feeling that in love, there are ups and downs in the process.

2006-06-17T15:10:00.000+08:00

C.I.D Xing Jing Er Ren Zhu

刑警2人组 OST.

2006-06-15T23:15:00.000+08:00

告诉你我不是一个会认输的人
当我不得不承认从跌倒失败也曾经守在阴霾
不看不听不说傻傻的发呆
难道我就被打败多幸运有你使我的生命充满希望
从今之后不在垂头丧气走开
所有人的期待让我站起来
甩掉了主败从今全打开我终于明白

fly 尽全力在飞起来
没有后悔不后退
我让你刮目相看
just fly
向世界证明我存在
努力过的汗水不断灌溉
美好未来
cause i can fly
yes i can fly.
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I wan to say that I admit that I am a person who admit lose all the time. When I dun see, dun listen, dun talk, but in a daze, means I have lost. And, I cant fly.

This song is totally the opposite of me.

Sean <3 Jiayi,
and I am Sean, the inspector. =)

An interesting poem.

2006-06-11T02:15:00.000+08:00

A candle being lit in the breeze.
A flowering tree with flowers raining from it.
Children gather it to play.
This is not reality.

Here Without You

2006-06-10T15:12:00.000+08:00

Im intoxicated again. Havent drank since chinese new year. My belly is growing in size. How?

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Here without you
A hundred days have made me older, since the last time that I saw your pretty face.
A thousand lies have made me colder, and I don't think I can look at this the same.
All the miles that separate, disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me.
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C.I.D 2

2006-06-08T22:21:00.000+08:00

Tay Ping Hui: "You xie ren ming zhi dao mei you jie guo, dan hai shi xiang hong hong lie lie de ai yi chang".
In other words, some knew that there'll be no happy ending, but they still insist on having a great love.

Ironically, I agree with his statement to a large extent.

My life officially starts on the 12/6/06, 9.00pm.

I hate myself.

2006-06-05T02:07:00.000+08:00

为什么总找不到你
我拼命发短讯
还要我强装着若无其事
我不喜欢这种感觉
还是无力自尊在暧昧里挥发好气

我讨厌我自己
总是搞不定你
难道他比我的心对你还要细腻
当我看到你的窗口透着他的身影
开始怀疑我只是代替品

我讨厌我自己
总在楼下等你
在我装不知情你却紧紧拥在他的怀里
当我从照后镜看到你们的情景
我开始学习放弃

Why do i hate myself? The lyrics of this song has explained it for me.

Happen to found this pic in my com. Took it quite some time ago in my fathers' blazer and PJC shirt inside. Maybe i could wear this to PROM if i wan a budget. Speaking about a budget, economically, being a Loner is not a bad choice. No outings = no money spent. No money spent = a budget surplus. However, in my case, I have a very low income. Alright, for those who think I am well off, I shall disclose my daily allowance: $3 a day and allowance during holidays isnt fixed. This figure is almost very close to the poverty figure of living on less than US$1 per day. In fact, I am able to have a surplus out of my daily meagre allowance, isnt it ironic? Looks like the balance of payment is healthy for me.

2nd week of holiday is here, and according to the schedule that i have planned for myself, mugging commences. Maybe I'll be mugging at home, at my tution centre near Pioneer Mall, or else I'll be at the Frontier @ pioneer of JW library. By the way, I find it very coincidential- I am studying in Pioneer JC and living in west coast Pioneer constituency. Am i fated with the word Pioneer? As i sing every monday morning, 'I am a true Pioneer'. From that phrase, this is how i derived myself to, ' I am a true Loner.'

Lotus lantern

2006-06-04T17:05:00.000+08:00

天上下凡三圣母
生下沉香和爹住
沉香日夜哭着要寻母

哮天犬追二郎神堵黑白无常常出入
砸炼丹炉改生死簿背天书修法术应付自如

玉皇大帝王母娘娘不食人间五谷也犯错误
八戒悟空世间万物教我真功夫天兵天将挡不住

我是娘的全部
娘是我的全部
娘痛苦我就不幸福

For the past few days, I was a loner who did not went out at all. Totally outcasted myself from the outside world. The only person who talked to me was my Niang. Which brings me to this song. Many of my frens find this song lame and irritating. But a fillial guy like me would understand the true meaning of this song. Alright. I m not totally a loner afterall because I had my niang to accompany me at home, but I HAVE NO LIFE!!

I am already eighTEEN. I am still a teenager afterall, but why i do not have the life of any typical teen has? Friends, outings, etc etc. I have none of them. Try staying at home consecutively for 5 days doing nth, dont go for any outings with friends for 3 month, or dont watch any movies for 1 year. How would u feel? Well, this is what I am going through now. I call this ULTIMATE LONELINESS.

Hanzhe

2006-06-01T23:35:00.000+08:00

Hanzhe used to lead a carefree life travelling around the world alone. Cultured, caring and eligibly single, he met xiyi. At first glance, he knows that he has fallen deeply in love with her. However, xiyi was married. He was devastated. When he was about to forget about her and move on, he met xiyi conincidentally in sydney. Both of them were on a business trip. Maybe this was fate. They had a great time together.

They returned home but lost contact with each other. Fortunately, fate brought them back together again. Xiyi got a job working in the same building as him. Knowing that Xiyi had filed a divorce with her husband, he finally declared his love for her one day. He was rejected immediately as xiyi wasnt ready to accept his love. But this didnt stop him. He was more determined to win her heart over instead.

He gave chocolates to her, waited below her house to gaze the stars with her, tidied her house and cooked for her when she was ill, packed and delivered lunch for her when she was busy with work, and even putting off his work and flew to sydney knowing that she was going for a business trip there.

On his birthday, he told xiyi that he wished for a constant companion who could accompany him on his tours. Xiyi got the hint, but feign ignorance. Until one day, both of them met for dinner, and xiyi told him that she could not forget her husband. Maybe if they had met earlier, she would not hestitate to consider him. He broke down.

The life of Hanzhe is so much similiar to mine. Looks like both of us are fated to be lone rangers and being played a fool by heaven.

Pain

2006-05-28T14:14:00.000+08:00

Damn it. I think I am turning into a sissy soon. A small wound on my knee and I am complaining pain now. Haven't experienced this external feeling of pain for a long time. I would say this feeling is quite shiok. Inflicting pain to make myself feel better.

Wondering how I got hurt? I was involved a fight. But it is just for fun between my frens to vent out our frustrations. However, I think that my injuries is considered minor compared to his. Haha....

孤单的夜里我不孤单

Police and thief

2006-05-28T01:48:00.000+08:00

MA DE...
Day 1 of my lonely holidays and I was being caught by the police. What a start to celebrate the first day of my loner vacation. Does heaven really want to make a fool out of me?

It all started like this......

On the 27 may 2006, 6 loners met up at Jurong point to have our loners' outing. As usual, they played their favourite arcade game initial d at Star Factory. I know playing such a game is quite being a loser, but it somehows allows us to forget our loneliness, momentarily. In no time, we used up all our tokens and walk out of jp.

It was about 10.15pm. None of us felt like going home so we decided to proceed to the nearby ART PARK to play basketball. Although the lamps were off at the basketball court, it didnt stop us from playing at all. We knew that playing basketball was prohibited after 10pm, but who cares?

Halfway during our game, one of us spotted a police car approaching. As we were about to leave the basketball court, at the distance away, 2 policeman were walking towards the court. Immediately, we seperated ourselves into 2 groups and 3 of us broke into a run. However, 2 of my frens from the other group was stopped by 1 of the police, leaving the other police in hot pursuit. In the end, we stopped our run. We surrendered, but 1 of us managed to escape.

We handed over our ICs to the police and we were asked to squat down in a row. How disgraceful this could be. The police then said "Then why u run? If you run that means you are guilty of something. stealing or robbing.. When you young got play police and thief or not ? Whose the one who is always running from the police ? " Then proceeded to add, "You know when you run i have the authority to use my baton on you ? There are 3 of you and one of me , all the more reason to use my baton and hammer!!"

Our particulars were taken down. They let us off with a stern warning. Then our friend who escaped finally dare to show up.

Haha. This is the second time that I was stopped by a police. But this time, it was more serious as I was being chased by them. Maybe I wont be that lucky the next time.

Finally, I shall officially show the list of our Loner team.

爱·恨·难

2006-05-27T00:27:00.000+08:00

只是爱你也难! 恨你也难!
割舍的勉强,国境千帆也许遗忘,我悲伤的悲伤,
爱你够难! 想象够难!
永远有遗憾.辛苦是谁的泪在逃,当是好梦终于做完.

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Sometimes how i wish that life could be simple. No love, no life, and therefore, no worries. Holidays are here, but why am i not happy at all? Does this marks the start of my true lonerism? I have been wandering alone for a long time. Should move on and lead a normal life? I had never done anything for myself which i could be proud of. In terms of intelligence, appearance, luck and popularity, I had always been inferior compared to everyone else. Nothing that i did seems to be smooth sailing for me. I'm currently experiencing the lowest peak of my life. When will i ever reach the turning point of my life? Is heaven trying to make a fool out of me? Is this my fate that i cant escape? Am i destined to be a loner? These are the few questions that i ask myself everyday. Unfortunately, I cant find any answers to them. I have tried to step out of this torture, however, there seems to be something pushing me back. Is is because of my hum-ness or lack of guts? Can anyone tell me how can i save myself? I dun wish to spend another 1 month of holiday doing nothing again. I am sick and tired of my daily lonely routine.
MAAA DEEE!!!!

Glamours

2006-05-22T22:48:00.000+08:00

UP UP, ryan is a loner.
UP UP, why is he a loner?
Hey come on everybody, lets follow him to be a loner...

The gal in the middle looks cute... GLAMOURS KAWAII NEI !!!

UP UP, ryan is a loner.
UP UP, why is he a loner?
Hey come on eveybody, lets follow him to be a loner...

Where is my ??????

2006-05-21T02:30:00.000+08:00

Dear fellow frens/loners,

Can I ask u all a few questions? U have to answer me honestly and truthfully.

1-as soon as you get online - who's name do you look at first?
2-when you hear your phone ringing - who do you hope it is calling?
3-when a love song comes on the radio - whos face comes to your mind?
4-whos name makes your heart skip a beat everytime you hear it?
5-who is it that you always find yourself thinking about - wondering if they're thinking about you?
6-the whole time you were reading this, was there only one person on your mind?

浪漫手机

2006-05-20T15:00:00.000+08:00

你微笑浏览手机里的浪漫
原来真心终究还是这么简单
温馨影幕上你可爱的模样
关于缘分的解释我又多传了一行

你微笑浏览手机里的浪漫
原来爱情可以来得这么突然
当新的较量就好比情拉长
我们的感情蔓延珍藏拥吻着飞扬
在雪里土壤
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My nokia 6260. It has been alongside with me for about 1 and a half years. Its kinda worn off but I'm not intending to change it unless i got the money to buy a better hp. Bought it for about $500+ with my own money after 1 month of slogging in a factory as a storeboy. Fotunately, i was paid well; $2000+/month, get to learn how to learn how to operate the forklift, meet many pple from all walks of life, and at the same time- lost weight.

Sort of missing my 2650 after listening to the song 浪漫手机 just now. Many memories of my working days kept inside it. A very cute, small, light, flippy hp and its soft in the inside. Too bad it had too little functions. Compared to my 6260, it cant play videos, mp3 and bluetooth. Maybe i shld just sell away my 6260 and buy back a 2650.

Went night cycling to JE with CM and 2 other loners to a 24/7 Indian roti prata shop this morning at 12am. CM was feeling down bcos of a gal. Basically, a man feels sad over 2 things-Money and girls. He intro to me a nice song to listen; 浪漫手机. The other time he intro me to listen to Feng and shan hu hai. These 3 songs had smth in common-heartbroken love songs and the lyrics were so similiar in describing our feelings then. Went back home near to 2am, saw many pple walking out of JP cinema. Maybe i shld try watching a midnight movie alone one day so that i can cultivate myself to be a true loner.

Many pple asked me why do i wan to be a loner. Hello? Under certain circumstances, one has no choice but to be a loner. Some told me that its a choice of mine that i am a loner today. The problem is that i dun have the luxury of the option to choose, and the only path that i can walk through is the path of Lonerism. Anyway, whats wrong in being a loner? We are oso humans too, only that we lack of something called a meaningful social life. To add on, what is a 'meaningful social life' then? Having many frens and being popular in sch, going on outings and being in a happening CCA, or having a stead? I will honestly admit that i have none of the above mentioned, therefore i am a loner. I'm ok. I wont die of loneliness. The most i hang on for another 6 more months and get into the army after that and escape myself from the world of lifeliness. I am fated to be a loner.

Vesak Day

2006-05-12T23:05:00.000+08:00

寺庙
深山有一块圣地　是修行的静土　
里面住着出家人　众生在里面修行　
参访的居士里头　和那路过的过路人　
见到庄严的寺庙　恭敬顶礼拜佛脚　
里面没有任何的烦恼　没有愚痴的困扰　
精进用功修行不停　别问到底行不行

清静的佛堂　庄严的法相　精进用功修行不停　
看着佛像心生恭敬　想一想我是该修行　
清静的佛堂　庄严的法相　精进用功修行不停　
只要虔诚的向佛顶礼　就能还我　清静

RAP:
《般若波罗密多心经》
观自在菩萨。行深般若波罗蜜多时。照见五蕴皆空。度一切苦厄。舍利子。色不异空。空不异色。色即是空。空即是色。受想行识亦复如是。舍利子。是诸法空相。不生不灭。不垢不净。不增不减。是故空中。无色。
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Amitbabha.
Today is Vesak day, a holiday, and oso another loner day for me. Nowhere to go, I was chanting the heart sutra at home and i found a phrase from it quite meaningful to me; 色即是空, 空即是色。
Hence, referring from the phrase above, I wanna make an analogy; 'Life is loneliness, Loneliness is life'.
So those who have life actually they are lonely, and those who are lonely actually have life.
Amitabha. Am I enlightened?

Soul

2006-05-10T17:25:00.000+08:00

洗了脸我看着自己　
似乎忘了一些什么事情我把手轻轻放进蒸气里　
哼起了自己的旋律想起你我不禁在此时想起你　
于是我做了一个深呼吸闭上眼　整理片段的回忆　
原来我们真的那么相近

That's More Than A Word　我和你(With My Heart)
眼神总是胜过言语　那一种默契　(I'll Believe)　
连我自己都会觉得惊奇(There Are So Many Feeling Insides Of Me)
That's More Than A Word　我和你(In My Life)总会有同一个表情　
心中的决定　(I'll Believe)　没有谁比我们更肯定

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z1AMdkiRjSI>

Cafe Cartel

2006-05-07T11:11:00.000+08:00

I'm fat and intoxicated again. But who cares?
Anyone wanna accompany me to Cafe Cartel again?

1)Peach tea

2) Cream of mushroom soup

3) Maincourse: st LOUIS pork ribs

4) *BurP* Too bad the bones cant be eaten.

5) And how could a fantastic dinner go without great wine?

I'm drunk. I've feasted on big meat.
Amitabha.

Lost Good Things 童话破灭

2006-05-06T15:32:00.000+08:00

Pull off my blindfold
and you're just too cold
you show me true friend
And baby I was so so
You might as well cut me up
Physically

U know

U got me on the edge of extremes
And I can‘t believe it
And don‘t know what 2 think
Summertime my rhymes were so lovesick
Now they're so sick
cause they ain‘t about love
Here‘s a pop lick-between us wasn‘t enough

And I know

I felt good times come
I thought they‘d stay
Things undone
They become what may
Angels come
But they left today
And I let you slip away

Listen now
Burning empty
Still this can‘t be
Believe it or not- Im not that happy
Hotel motel it's hot inhell
Free from myself
But now left with no home

I want u 2 know
I never would have all
Figured out
That Way you play me now
It could have been forever
Now it‘s bringing me down
The high and the low
Up and down we go
Put myself 2 close
Got burnt like toast
Feels like I‘m sinking
In the Dead Sea
Don‘t really care
The space inside is so empty

It‘s like it‘s over
Before begun
This song is over
And so is our 1