Just look at my beret..

Its not red(commandos), not brown(guards), not green(infantry), not black(support units), not blue(clerk/storeman).

I m a trooper from the republic of singapore air force - RSAF.

So am I....

Honoured?

Proud?

Happy?

Excited?

Not at all. After going through 7 months of shit and tough training I still feel like a loner. Although army has turned me into a more

1. fitter

2. stronger

3. muscular

4.darker

person, somehow I feel that I have been seperated from the outside world. All i know now is only stuffs about millitary. The hobbies and interests that i used to do in the past has slowly eroded away from my life. Basketball, doing tutorials, swimming, and cycling are not in my routine anymore.

I m not sure what i am doing now... Its stirring inside me and i feel so confused... maybe what i need is a life now to save myself...